Your not the only one whose lost someone. We’ve all lost someone ,most of us lost people and they didn’t even die. I’ve lost people I’ve made promises to, people I’ve said I’d love, people I’ve said I’d take care of , people who’ve loved me but for some reason I cant get that situation right enough to make it better. Think of how bad that is to lose someone to life, knowing both sides can comunicate but don’t. You might as well be dead yourself.